Malyian, why are you so stupid? [NSFW language]

'Nix'rael, why don't you punish Eragios for what she does yet you hate at me?'

'Why do we let the Druid live with everything he does?'

Such squabbling over the Guild Crystal. I feel as if there are Foalings tugging at my skirts for attention at how it sounds! Why, Nix why? They keep calling me. Demanding explanations for what I do. Why should I tell them? Eragios and Malyian are fucking crazy! One a bit less than the other....

Why do I tolerate Eragios more than Malyian? I know her insanity. I can identify it. The spells that control her do not conceal themselves. They make their presence known to me. Their actions are uniform. 'Purge all distractions, purge all threats to the host.' An identifiable pattern that I can watch, study, and avoid triggering.

Maliyan's insanity? Day by day it changes. I did not know he was deranged for quite a spell. I thought it was his old predjudices warping his sense of reality!! Some days he's just being snarky and insulting Scarlets within the Cathedral. Others? He's calling everyone a whore and demanding that we lay down and die. SlicingEragios open, attacking her water element and threatening the one person she seems to hold dear. She bled out alone in the Nether! She almost died!! He choked Emmerich and broke his nose and he thinks I'll accept an APOLOGY for that? He's insulted every race, religion, and class he comes across but expects us all to accept it without argument. If we dare question any of it, poke holes in his blind hate? He shuts down, walks off and claims no allegiance with any of us... He drives me up the wall. After walking away and spewing as many insults as he can my way? The bastard crawls back and expects a few words of apology shall fix everything, when all it proves that this STUPID man who is ages beyond me and should KNOW better is a brainless dunce. He learns NOTHING.

This chasing of Yarane has only increased his irratic behavior. Septus reports to me of the things he has witnessed and been a part of. Cornering a Priestess and... putting an explosive seed in her? The fuck is that? The Rogue he now claims affection for is one he tortured!! Light damnit, I don't even know what to think of that. It turns my stomach... So many attacks within Stormwind. Malyian is a thrice-damned fool to think it wise to stage attacks and interrogations within those walls! People listen, watch. Rumors spread like wildfire and... All he does reflects back on my Keepers. It seems Malyian honestly does not care of what havoc he reaps as long as he has his fun. Malyian runs rampant with schemes to destroy Yarane, why now? I think he just hates being bested and... Honestly, I think he enjoys the chaos it all brings.

This Old God he claims whispers to him, is it really there or is it a manifestation he has concocted to excuse his behavior? We will not know until we try something to disrupt these...whispers he thinks he can hear. He once spoke of Elune telling him things. Telling him to hurt, kill, and purge the infidels. The Elune I have learned from the Priestesses is not once for such things. These tomes speak of a creature who soothes the violence with peace and healing.Malyian does none of these things. He spews bile and hate wherever he goes.

He is a poor excuse of a Follower to the Moon Goddess and an even poorer Druid. A Druid is for balancing the world, nature and beyond...Malyian only disrupts this balance, never fixing the damage he does... How can he still wield the power of nature when he is so out of touch with it?

Malyian requested my presence at his home yesterday. He demanded that I come all the way out to Winterspring to a location that I do not know and just to trust him that it's not some sort of trap. He called me plenty of things for my hesitation and stubborn behavior. The bastard wouldn't meet me near civilization (or Guards). Does he think me daft? His last home iN Darnassus was rigged to the teeth with traps and devices to kill anyone that wanders in. How could he possibly think I'd be eager to just waltz into an unknown location? With Malyian's erratic behavior, I never know when he'll attack me or beg forgiveness. I trust neither. So... I went up to investigate with Droman and Eragios in tow. Found Malyian in his new home with that Rymenhild Rogue squeeze of his. (Emmerich informed me how....gusty the two can be together. Ick. )

Malyian had a grant plot to capture Yarane lined out for me. Basically.... He...wants to pretend to work with Yarane while Yarane leads Malyian to a hide-out of his. Malyian tells me Yarane believes that the Druid will bring a Rogue of the Kamil Te Kar to this super-secret location and then the two will kill the woman. Of course, Malyian being the all wise man that he is.. He'll...bring Keepers instead and we'll triumphantly squash Yarane! -or something.

So. Malyian wants me to bring my Keepers to an unknown location Yarane is willing to show him of all people. He thinks...Yarane is stupid enough to ever believe that Malyian would do his bidding? He... How can Malyian ever think it is a good idea to just drop in on Yarane and walk into an obvious trap!? Of course Yarane wont expect Malyian to bring this Rogue Lady! Of course he'll have something extra nasty set up for Malyian and any allies he brings! WHY WOULD I EVER FOLLOW THIS INANE PLAN!? ...Not to mention luring one of the mob's higher ups would have theKamil Te Kar after us AS WELL.

Malyian was not pleased that I didn't gush at his AMAZING plan. He informed me he was done with children and that I should get the fuck out. Sure, fine. I'll leave the crazy but I am sick and tired of whatMalyian does. He taunts Yarane constantly with that Soul Stone he nabbed form him. I know of that from what Grator updated me on what happened at our ship. (That is now fucking TORCHED) Why would I want an Old God hearing and deranged Druid that hates everything to have hold of such an item? His provoking of Yarane has only lead to more trouble, a ruined base and one of my Duckies fucking tortured. (One he left to DIE as well.)

He wouldn't give up the stone. He likes the control it brings, I swear. I had to motivate him. I'd preferred to have Eragios just polymorph the Druid, but they have a habit of shifting out of that so... I death gripped the Rogue to me and put my runeblade to her throat. Obvious bluff was obvious. If I had intended to do anything to the woman, I would have just have outright attacked. I don't dilly-dally with that shit. Also, do you know how awkward it is to hold aRuneblade to some-one's throat while you hold them back with the other arm? You get tired fast and...cutting at some-one's throat with a two-handed blade in such a position is....stupid. I have two daggers at my hip I could have used if I wanted to really drive the threat home.

So. His reaction shows that he really cares for this random chit. He froze right up in shock. Funny how that works. Maiming his Guild members to the brink of death or watchingYarane stab a dagger through the throat of a fellow Druid? He can walk it off. Me putting a blade to his sudden sweetheart's throat? OH LIGHT HOW COULD I!? All because he doesn't see that someone who has an OLD GOD whispering to him shouldn't hold any item of influence over a malicious Warlock.

He lead all of us to some Barrow Dens. You know the place that has roots sticking out all over the dug out walls and ceiling? Roots a Druid can control.. This place he requested I walk alone with him while I kept a blade to his fuck toy's throat? Light, no. I'm not stupid.Droman and Eragios followed close behind.  Following Malyian anywhere that involves nature or a place he's scouted before me is always a bad idea. Traps and the very land used against me. Fuck. I expected something dramatic out of him. When we got to the bottom he wanted me just to move away from the Human girl before we were out of that place and before I had the stone in hand. What? So he can manipulate the very roots about us and tear me limb from limb in a tantrum? How about...no? Fuck, the psycho threatened to KILL US ALL because I made aperceived threat against his new toy! How twisted is that? 'If I can't have the stone, roots shoot out and everyone DIES.'

-and he calls me a monster..... He calls me unbalanced, crazy, childish.... Bah! The man needs to analyze his own actions. See if he can pull apart his own thoughts from what the Old God whispers.

He stalled and bickered about trust until he finally handed the stone over to Droman. I shoved Rym at him and us three less-crazy ones slipped into a portal Eragios opened and that was the end of that. Malyian spewed threats over the crystal about some more petty revenge before he shut his trap... Ugh.

I....really don't understand how he can go from calling Humans a barbarian and un-evolved race, their religion heretic and false then- ....Out of nowhere this Rogue Rym springs up, then Malyian suddenly

cares

? Even she informed me it was only casual sex when I saw her getting hammered in the Slaughtered Lamb. Even she wasn't concerned with my presence there, nor did she seem to take the earlier threat against her seriously. Or care, I guess?Felfire, she knows Yarane somehow. Spoke that she knew him well, but admitted to only know him for a few months. Hmph. She never knew Yarane when he was with Rakaa. Never saw how broken he became.....wasting away at the Stormwind Gates. Never-

Must stop thinking about those memories. Rakaa is gone and Yarane is lost. He will never be the man I thought of as a friend again.

Never.

After all Malyian did and proclaimed.... He was once more chatty over the Guild Crystal when Cyo came about.

(CYO WHERE THE FUCK HAVE YOU BEEN?)

Cooled down, he claimed to be... Said sex with Rym calmed him down. Light, what!? Threaten to kill us all and you think claiming that some rough sex was all you needed to make it all better?

We should all forget your past transgressions because you are over them? Evey thing is cool now!?

FUCKING STUPID, MENTALLY DEFECTIVE, OLD, ADDLE BRAINED-

.....Ugh.

Malyian confuses me, confounds me. Wallows in his sickness alone and tells no one but expects aid when we don't know the extent this wound festers within. What has it polluted, Malyian? What has it corrupted and is there anything to save within? Anything worth saving?

Emmerich asked me that. Asked if there was something good within the tired, old elf worth redeeming. Ages ago I would have said yes. Now? I remained mute. I don't see anything now. 

He called me a rotting whore.

The cold logic of my brain tells me to give the Druid to Yarane and see if the Warlock would take his revenge and flee from my sight. See if Yarane would quell his need to destroy me and mine if he just had the Druid. Cold, uncaring logic tells me this is a path that would lead to the least amount of violence. Lower the casualty list to one Druid who hates the world and once spoke of wishing for death anyway. Would it be so bad to sacrifice one for all of my Keepers?

Would it? Why don't I do it? ....because he-

He can't help himself. Right?

...

These ancient ones, these Elders. They all scream at me about how much of a child I am. How blind and ignorant I am when I point out the flaws of their logic. How silly and wrapped up in my emotions and inexperienced I am to them. Yet, they yell at me as children do. throwing petty insults and enraging. Do the eons you They call me childish when I am skittish, warry to put myself in a situation that could lead to my death or injury. Putting my Duckies at risk... What can I say but that I am a child. I know this as well as they think they do. They call me such things to insult, but I do not see how truth could ever be used as a weapon against me. If Draenor had never been discovered by the Legion.... I would be training as a Mage still, an Adept and student with fellow younglings to giggle with about childish hopes and dreams. The summer dances would be the highlight of a short year, getting to take the first steps in a dance that would bridge me from a mere girl to woman... I never was old enough to participate, I would be this year. I-

Such thoughts are useless. Azeroth seems to make it's children grow up fast. So be it.

I should stop wasting my time writing this drivel. Malyian asked me what I do to safeguard my own. What am I doing? Researching. Trying to find cures for my Duckies. We can not protect ourselves when we try to slaughter each other. So, back to the books I go. Study, study... I feel as if I am back inShattrath tucked away in the archives and trying to cram for a test that I must take when the sun rises. Higher stakes are on the line beyond a passing grade now.

....The stones Malyian uses for long distance communications. One he gave me, one Emmerich threw away and one I assume he still has. Where did he get those? ......Are they corrupted likeSaronite is?